I am back in the hospital.
I am also mad as hell.
Why Ash?
Becuase I was supposed to go on Monday, not Friday. Apparantly they had an open spot today to check in for the next week and a half, and my mom and clary went: We'll take it!
I feel completely out of the loop. You can say I'm being defiant, an idiot for not coming back. I am pesonally fine. Bone cancer and leukemia are just minor flaws that I need to overcome....by myself and with family.
But no, my family wishes to ship me off to watch The Price Is Right all day. Such joys.
My laptop has decided that the boards are not welcoming enough....or at least, it doesn't like me on there. That is why I haven't visited _twilight_ or Twilight Obsession for the longest time. Sorry.
I am still quite angry.
I know, I know.... "It's better this way. You can live longer, see Lillian Rose become a beautiful woman, stay with clary and the rest of your family and friends..."
I'm sorry to say that at times I think you're wrong there. I want to be with them now. Clary has been going unstable (no offense Clar or anything) and with Alysa being suicidal lately, I still feel this was the wrong decision...for me.
I won't be able to see Clary until tomorrow night, which to me, is quite depressing. My mom is going to be here 24/7 with Alex...(God save me) and my dad (step-father) is away to england. Where I not-so-secretly want to be. In news of Bio-father, he came in on my check-in, which in this case was an hour and a half ago. He looked at me, had hat awkward silence where you KNOW a gay baby is being born, and then he nodded and said: "Get better." and left. My mom was also staring at him like a piece of prey, ready to rip his head off...
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With Jen's news of her twins, she's having a hay day with Clary. They are setting up Lillian's nursery in our house (which we got everything-a whole ten boxes- moved in) I told her to shop for me.
Recently, I had taken up a job at -bah- starbucks an my grandfather gave us about ten-thousand (to help pay for the house and furniture), so Clary and Jen will be busy driving down to Seatte and having a blast at Ikea. I'm glad they are getting along so well, it's good for them, I think.
Well, I should probably go...Price is Right is giving away new hybrid. See ya later.
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first of all, enjoy the Price is Right (It was better before Drew Carey though..). Second of all, I'm glad your back in. For some odd reason, your italisized comment about seeing Lillian grow up to be a beautiful woman, etc, makes me think of something I would say. *shrug* I dont know! lol.
Oh, and just to let you know, me and Allison keep mentioning you in church for the prayers. I know I dont pray that much, but the church does, and they have been praying for you for a while now. (Pastor wanted me to tell you, so.. yeah.) They're all thinking about you.. as.. odd and creepy as that sounds.. lol
GET BETTER NOW!
(Oh, and tell your dad I want to punch him in the face. <.<)
I know you aren't very happy about being in the hospital when you feel you are needed elsewhere, but your family only wants you to get better. They don't want you to suffer. And honestly, you can't get over bone cancer and leukemia by yourself. With your family or not. I'm sorry. I wish you could and that you didn't have to spend your time in the hospital away from them, but that's not the way things work.
Right now you may not think being in the hospital is the right thing, but you may change your mind when you, as you said, "see Lillian Rose become a beautiful woman."
Take care of yourself.
*Best Wishes, as always*
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